That moment Xia sat on a dilapidated train, crossing a strange land. He had been sitting for a long time, and the scenery outside the window had never changed, only the mountains emitting cold air and unknown cities slowly drifted by. He had never seen these places, and he didn’t even have time to see them. He just sat there, his eyes looking straight ahead, as if waiting for something, and as if he was escaping from something.
The train passed through the tunnel, and the roar of the train made his thoughts stagnate. The track of the train was like his life at this moment, unable to stop and unable to change. He knew in his heart that he was pursuing more than just the light cone. He had heard the word light cone too many times. It was like a mystery that deeply trapped him.
1. Endless pursuit
He remembered the first time he heard the name of the light cone, it was on a quiet night, and the bar was a little noisy. At that time, he was doing a boring job. The lights in the bar were dim, and people’s laughter and conversations were intertwined. A strange man walked up to his table and put down his glass. The man looked at him, his eyes calm, as if he had foreseen a certain result.
“You are looking for the Light Cone, right?” the man asked, in a flat tone.
“I’m not looking for the Light Cone.” Na Kexia replied, with a little impatience in his voice.
The man smiled and didn’t continue talking. He turned and walked away, leaving this sentence: “The Light Cone is what you have been pursuing. You don’t believe in yourself until you touch it.”
Na Kexia remembered that at that moment, he did not understand what the man said. The Light Cone was a strange term to him, like some invisible thing, far away and always out of reach. However, as time passed, the sentence gradually implanted itself deeply in his heart and became a thought in his heart.
He began to pursue the Light Cone, crossing countless cities and wilderness, chasing invisible things. He no longer cared whether the goal was real or whether it could be achieved. The pursuit itself became the whole of his life.
2. Loneliness and confusion
Na Kexia lowered his head and looked at the Light Cone information in his hand. The same words, repeated names, and repeated places were written on each page. It seemed that everything pointed to the same ending, but it made him feel extremely far away. He knew in his heart that he was not looking for an object, but a forgotten memory or a neglected emotion.
The scenery outside the train became more and more blurred, and the darkness began to swallow everything, as if entering an endless tunnel. At that moment, Xia leaned back in his seat and closed his eyes. All kinds of past memories emerged in his mind, and all kinds of memories came like a tide, but he didn’t know how to deal with them.
“What am I looking for?” He asked himself softly.
He never really stopped to ask himself this question. Whether on the road to pursuing the light cone or at other times, he always kept moving forward, as if he had to go further to find the answer. But he knew that the answer was never outside, but in his own heart.
He opened his eyes again, and the world in front of him was still dark, and the train compartment was filled with a suffocating silence. His eyes began to wander around the window, and at that moment, he suddenly understood something. The cone of light may be just a symbol, symbolizing the emotions and choices that he has never faced in his heart.
3. Choice and fate
The train was running in the middle of the night, and the atmosphere in the carriage was solemn and silent. Na Kexia looked into the distance, and a voice in his heart told him that perhaps he had reached the end. No matter how he pursued, he could not change his position in the end. The choice had already been determined in his life.
He knew that he could no longer escape and could no longer search for the cone of light endlessly. Maybe the cone of light did not exist, or it was not important. What was important was his inner choice, those emotions that had been ignored, and those memories that had been forgotten in the past. Fate had already arranged everything, and he was just a speck of dust on that track.
“You are only pursuing yourself.” He said in a low voice, as if talking to himself.
Suddenly, a familiar figure appeared at the door of the carriage. That was the person he had been looking for. The mysterious man was still standing at the door, with no expression on his face.
“Did you find it?” the man asked in a flat voice.
Xia didn’t answer at that moment. He already knew that the answer was never outside, but in his heart. Those mists and mysteries will eventually disperse with the wind, as if they had never existed.
“I understand,” he whispered, “I understand.”
Fourth, the way home
The train continued to move forward, and the scenery outside the window began to gradually become brighter. The sun shone through the window, illuminating Xia’s face. The confusion and confusion in the past seemed to be relieved at this moment. He no longer looked for the light, nor did he escape his fate. In any case, the road ahead was always his own choice.
He sat quietly in the carriage, staring at the gradually brightening world outside, his heart filled with a kind of indescribable tranquility. Perhaps, this is the reincarnation of fate, going through countless mists and finally returning to peace.
The train went farther and farther, heading into the distance, like an unfinished story that would never end.